THURSDAY, JANUARY 17, 2008 - 19:20
I am currently in what I call a spiritual divide. I am a husband and father, I am so ashamed of my actions that I don't call myself daddy anymore. My wife is the most beautiful woman a man can ask for, inside and out. I am in the Army, I don't like making excuses and this is not an excuse it an explanation. I am in the Army I have been deployed (Iraq and Afghanistan) when I returned from the latest deployment, my wife had become so independent that it was a shock to me. I took it as if she no longer needed me. With that being said, I began to (big SIGH!!), I began to view people on video and on-line having sex. Not that it was lacking in that area at home, It was my way of cheating but not really cheating on her physically. It has progressed to the point that I find myself SNEAKING downstairs in MY home, to go watch them. My wife has caught me on a couple of occassions and only laughed it off saying I need help. Now a couple of weeks ago I have gone online and begin to watch small clips online of the same material. My wife says I need counseling and Im in need of prayer. The later I agree. I don't want to loose my wife, but I feel she is beginning to think I am actually physically cheating, though I know lusting is a form sin and cheating. I NEED HELP. ADVICE something or I fear I am going to loose the best woman I have in my life, other than my MOM.
Sincerly;
needablessin
POSTED BY NEEDABLESSIN
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I also want to add that there is no such thing as a "spiritual divide". You are either on the Lord's side or Satan's side, and the bible talks about how sinful the "lust of the eye" is. If you die today in your mess, you will not see the Kingdom of God! Other than losing your wife, you will lose your eternal life! What is more important! ?
You are going to have to get your act together. Just by admitting that you have a problem is a sucessful step, but you can't keep doing the same things. You have to get yourself together, because a good wife or husband is almost impossible to find. Satan is out to destroy marriages, because marriage is honorable by God. Talk to your wife, and go to church. Pray with her, and let her know you love her. You have to help yourself, before your problem becomes addictive. Eventually you will physically cheat on her, and you will lose her.You will then be left alone with your computer, and no family! Is that the way you want to spend the rest of your life! Get Saved, and declare Victory over Satan. God is able to do anything, but first you have to seek him! I'll be praying for you!
my prayers for you