SATURDAY, DECEMBER 29, 2007 - 04:12
I'm a 36 y/o mother of 2 healthy boys, a great husband(most of the time)ha-, a family that loves me. Why can I not get out of my rutt! I go to church and sit there and cry like a baby. My heart is with Jesus...I believe in Him...I love Him....I want so badly to get out of this depression that binds me about 1/2 of the year or more. I use to think it was seasonal depression, but it happens more often now. I have a lot that has happened in the past 3 years. My brother got killed but a month later I was laid out at the alter with so much peace in my heart. The Holy Spirit had touched me and I had never felt that before. I thought I had Satan where I wanted him. Away from ME! Ha! was I wrong. He just won't stay off of my back. I was sexually mollested as a child and never told anyone until about 4 years ago. That is always in the back of my mind. I am just weak minded, and although I have a very good support system here in MS, no one but my mother in law and my husband know of the pain I have been through to try and get it out of my head. My mother in law had the same thing happen to her by a family member, but she is a Saint in the church, prayer warrior. She is the stronges woman I know on this earth. Her husband just came back to Jesus after being away for 20 years. God is so good! I am thankful, but at the same time I feel worthless, If it were not for my boys, I would have given up a long time ago. I just can't seem to stay on the road with Jesus. I get knocked down so easy. I don't want to be this way anymore. I want to be STRONG, I want to have my husband in church beside me, instead of me going when he is gone and staying home with him when he is home. It sorta brings me down not to be in God's house. But I do have to say after listening to Kirks CD, I may be ready to run down the ailes shouting Sunday Morning. Anyway, if yall will just say a little extra prayer for JM in MS--Thanks
POSTED BY JANALYNN
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Hi
I'm 21. I'm praying for you. When I read your post I thought so much of myself. I was molested by 3 family members and raped by one of them. My story only came out three years ago. It's tough believe me I know. But I also know that you can't help anyone until you've helped yourself. Living for your boys is good but not good enough. Gods wants us to want to live not live because we need to because of some or other reason. We rob our selves of so much happiness on a daily basis and we don't even realise it. We all have unanswered questions and what helps is to stop searching for these answers but to accept that God will reveal the answers in time. Each of us can write a book on our trials and tribulations. I sometimes wonder....If you ask people what's wrong they dwell for days on those feelings but ask them what wonderful things have happened in there lives the feelings subside quite fast. God is obviously calling you and what you must realise is that you can't use your husband as an excuse for not going to church, what if God is calling you so that you can hold your husband's hand when God feels his ready to be called. My boyfriend is very active in the church and so am I and things are still not easy. His loves me but keeps me at a distance. Sometimes I ask God what he's thinking giving me such a person? And I know that he's the one for me because I prayed for my future husband and believe God sent him as a gift. But there's so many obsticles God has put on our pathway to bring us closer together. Whether we make it or not depends on us. God has done his part. Remember...God helps those who helps themselves. Also very important....God is never too early or too late. Jesus rose Lazarus from the dead 4 days after his death. To us, he may have been 4 days late but he's on time.
The easiest thing is to give in but the least rewarding. To praise God in the hard times is the most difficult thing but brings the biggest rewards. Lucky for us we never alone.
God Bless
Giggles
"Peace begins when we relinquish control of our lives to the Lord." Let the lord take every bad thought away. Praise the lord for all the good in your life, praise him for your health praise him for even knowing of him.We must stop dwelling on all the bad. I know how you feel,believe me I do,but with my faith in the Lord I no longer worry about my wordly pain for I know that one day I will be free of it all. I will feel no pain, no sorrow, no want for anything other than the Lords love. We have to know that this world is nothing. Live in the lord and know that all that you do have is a blessing. Your sweet children are the lords gifts to you to show you that there is hope! There is always light to be found. Praise the Lord. I will keep you in my prayers. As I know the Lord has something in store for you, thats why he will not let satan interfer, you must not allow him either. Blessings always.
I have been through many trails but this verse always helps me. Keep praising God for the things you do have. Praise him for your children if nothing else. The devil wants to keep you down but You are a Child of Christ!! You are fearfully and wonderfully made!!! Claim Psalms 139:14 When you hear that you are nothing nothing matters. Speak that verse until you don't hear that anymore
The Lord knows what or even why you are going through what you are. But call on him and ask for help he'll pull you through!!
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Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your path straight. Prov 3:5,6
i know what you mean as i was reading what you wrote its like i can actually feel your pain, im going through some of the things that you said im not going say i been through all of them.....but hey.... you know all things must come to and end some how...its gonna get better some how
Hey,
Acordding to luke 10:19, God has given us power!!!!! Power to tread over all the surfaces of the devil. You have to start speaking things into existence, in the word it says that they spoke unto one another and the angels recorded in the book and it came to pass!!! Start SPEAKING IT!!!!!!!!!!! Watch God do it.....Matter a fact, i'm going to toch and agree with you over the computer...And it is so, we bind the devil on every hand, i decree for him to loose God's sons and daughter's free...For satan, you a lier and the truth is not in you whatsoever...We plead the blood of Jesus of her life now, and you said in your word that when you see the blood, you'll pass over...We ask that you let depression pass over, we pray that you hurt, harm, amd danger in the name of JESUS........Amen
Be like David, and encourage yourself in the lord your God.....
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God Bless,
Evang. Cool Beans
Hey,
Acordding to luke 10:19, God has given us power!!!!! Power to tread over all the surfaces of the devil. You have to start speaking things into existence, in the word it says that they spoke unto one another and the angels recorded in the book and it came to pass!!! Start SPEAKING IT!!!!!!!!!!! Watch God do it.....Matter a fact, i'm going to toch and agree with you over the computer...And it is so, we bind the devil on every hand, i decree for him to loose God's sons and daughter's free...For satan, you a lier and the truth is not in you whatsoever...We plead the blood of Jesus of her life now, and you said in your word that when you see the blood, you'll pass over...We ask that you let depression pass over, we pray that you hurt, harm, amd danger in the name of JESUS........Amen
Be like David, and encourage yourself in the lord your God.....
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God Bless,
Evang. Cool Beans
Praying for you...........