Joined: Jul 2008
toronto, ON
Canada
Thursday, July 17, 2008 - 02:11
looking for strength
2 years ago I experienced a near death experience (3rd degree burns 70% of my body head to toe I had to re learn how to walk talk all over & deal with my skin re growing & it feels like a tight leather glove)
I recently watched a show on mtv where u was on Baldwin hills & u did a speech
“This is what I signed up for”
Since my accident I have been questioning every thing in my life.
I was in a relationship with a family of 4 & aspiring career.
I am loosing control. My family has left me I live in my office, & now all of this is affecting my work/career. I feel I have no1 to talk to.
I wish there was a support group that I can attend that would help guide my life back on track…
I don’t know y I am reaching out to u but for some reason I am drawn to you since that show on TV.
My life is a mess & it’s all mental I don’t know what to do so many ppl depend on me to be strong to support them & I am depressed & stressed out.
I feel lost.
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Bro I am not kirk. But I fell you.
I was a good husband (that is what I thought) and my wife cheated on me.
Then devorced me. I was like God I was faith full father.
I have been steedily employed for the past coupple of years. we have a good home.
why do I deserve this?. It tore me up. I realy fell away from God and tried my own thing.
But God did not forget me. 15 years before that I had an oppertunity to to have a sexual relationship with this fine girl. and I didn't because I feared God.
God said to me "When you go home next month swing by her Grand ma and say hello."
So I did that. We got back intuch and I found out that she had come to Christ.
I listened to her and how she related to God and I was impressed.
we were married in 2 months.
Now I see that God knew that my exwife was a covanent braker and he allowed that marriage to die. Fo my denefit. freed me durring that time when my new wife was free and in God place.
then placed her before me..
God never forgot.
He never let me go.
He had a plan that I could not see.
So that same goes for you.
He has not forgot you.
You are still in His arms.
He is moving in your life. you just don't see it all.
What I should have done and what you can do is not give up in Him.
Put your eye twards Him
Go back to your church or find a church that is allive in Christ.
Sowe your tithe with expectation of God return.
serch you self and expell all that is not rightous.
Forgive and throw away all resentments(that is a demon man)
And come before God in faith and trust that He is handling your buisness.
you are not alone. God bless you.